End of November Update

 WIPs (new ones are bolded)

Ten Stitch Blanket, Caron Cakes (started 2019)

Walter's Blanket, Lion Brand Mandala Sparkle (Started July 16, 2024)

Bright Stripes Throw, Caron Anniversary Cakes (Started September 5, 2024)

Slumber Cowl, Madelinetosh DK (Started September 28, 2024)

Musselburgh II, Hedgehog Fibres Sock (Started October 6, 2024) - Car knitting!

Hibernating

Dancing Bees MKAL, Debbie Bliss Rialto Lace (started 2015 - oops)

Havannah, Sublime Yarns Eden DK (Started  July 16, 2024)

Oranje, Estelle Yarns Andean Heathers (started 2017, frogged and restarted on smaller needles 2024)

End of month yarn stats:  61 entries, 90.5 skeins, 27838.90 yards.

Hey, I finished three things!  I did buy yarn, though, but Walter wants me to knit him grey socks.  And then we saw the glow-in-the-dark chenille yarn.  But other than that, nada!  And my total yardage went down (by not a lot, haha).  Please, no one talk about the camping stuff.  I just added it to my phone, so there's hope for November.

Here are November's goals:

1.  Y'know that camping stuff still in my car?  I'm going to put it away.

2.  While I'd love to make a goal to finish the cowl, I'm not going to risk hurting my wrist too much before the Christmas concerts.  My goal instead is to get to the third ball needed for the cowl (there are four balls).

3.  Don't.  Buy.  Yarn.

4.  Maybe I should add 'sharpen reed knife' to my phone, too.  Okay, it's in there.  That's the goal.

Well, look at that.  I sort of made my goals this month.  I sharpened the knife, but it still needs more.  I also finished the cowl!

December's goals:

1.  Survive December mentally.  There's a lot going on (playing in two concerts, one work party, bunch of work extra stuff).

2.  Only buy the yarn required for the gift.

3.  Sharpen the knife more.

4.  Finish a couple of small stashbusting projects and bring out Oranje to work on exclusively.

End of October Update

 WIPs (new ones are bolded)

Ten Stitch Blanket, Caron Cakes (started 2019)

Walter's Blanket, Lion Brand Mandala Sparkle (Started July 16, 2024)

Stormy Day Jacket, Briggs & Little Heritage 2-Ply (Started August 17, 2024)

Bright Stripes Throw, Caron Anniversary Cakes (Started September 5, 2024)

Musselburgh for Walter, Debbie Bliss Botany Lace (Started September 8, 2024)

Slumber Cowl, Madelinetosh DK (Started September 28, 2024)

Musselburgh II, Hedgehog Fibres Sock (Started October 6, 2024) - Car knitting!

Super Striped Scarf, x3 different yarns (chenille, and two glow-in-the-dark) (Started October 17, 2024)

Hibernating

Dancing Bees MKAL, Debbie Bliss Rialto Lace (started 2015 - oops)

Havannah, Sublime Yarns Eden DK (Started  July 16, 2024)

Oranje, Estelle Yarns Andean Heathers (started 2017, frogged and restarted on smaller needles 2024)

End of month yarn stats:  61 entries, 93 skeins, 28403.60 yards.

September.  September was wild.  I actually only bought 12 skeins (three entries) on the 14th.  One entry (of six skeins) is mine, one (four skeins) is my husband's, and one (two skeins) is my son's.

I also decided to frog some of the projects started earlier this year (Ceciliana and the Goblin socks).  Ceciliana's yarns weren't playing well together, and the yarn for the socks wants to be a hat (probably a third Musselburgh - that's a fun one to knit).

For September's goals, I got through 3 and 4.  I'm so close to finishing Walter's jacket.  It's currently blocking and needs buttons, but it's otherwise done.  The camping stuff is half put away.  It was a wild month.

Here are October's goals:

1.  Put the freaking camping stuff away.

2.  Finish Walter's jacket and his hat.

3.  Don't buy yarn.  Seriously.  I don't knit that fast, really.

4.  Sharpen the reed knife and keep practicing.

Hey, I finished three things!  I did buy yarn, though, but Walter wants me to knit him grey socks.  And then we saw the glow-in-the-dark chenille yarn.  But other than that, nada!  And my total yardage went down (by not a lot, haha).  Please, no one talk about the camping stuff.  I just added it to my phone, so there's hope for November.

Here are November's goals:

1.  Y'know that camping stuff still in my car?  I'm going to put it away.

2.  While I'd love to make a goal to finish the cowl, I'm not going to risk hurting my wrist too much before the Christmas concerts.  My goal instead is to get to the third ball needed for the cowl (there are four balls).

3.  Don't.  Buy.  Yarn.

4.  Maybe I should add 'sharpen reed knife' to my phone, too.  Okay, it's in there.  That's the goal.

I Lied!

 I started another project on September 28 and didn't include it in the update.  It's a cowl for my husband, using the yarn he picked out.

Carry on.

End of September Update

WIPs (new ones are bolded)

Ten Stitch Blanket, Caron Cakes (started 2019)

Musselburgh, Gedifra Lana Mia (Started July 16, 2024)(Restarted August 28 - too large)(Finished September 7, 2024)

Walter's Blanket, Lion Brand Mandala Sparkle (Started July 16, 2024)

Stormy Day Jacket, Briggs & Little Heritage 2-Ply (Started August 17, 2024)

Goblin Socks, Hedgehog Fibres Sock (Started March 2, 2024 and I truly don't know why it wasn't added) FROGGED

Bright Stripes Throw, Caron Anniversary Cakes (Started September 5, 2024)

Musselburgh for Walter, Debbie Bliss Botany Lace (Started September 8, 2024)

Hibernating

Dancing Bees MKAL, Debbie Bliss Rialto Lace (started 2015 - oops)

Daughter of Thrain MKAL, Crystal Palace Yarn Lace (started 2017)(I think I'm going to frog this one)

Ceciliana, madelinetosh Tosh Sock, madelinetosh Twist Light (started March 19, 2024)FROGGED

Havannah, Sublime Yarns Eden DK (Started  July 16, 2024)

Oranje, Estelle Yarns Andean Heathers (started 2017, frogged and restarted on smaller needles 2024)

End of month yarn stats:  57 entries, 93 skeins, 28642.90 yards.  I bought more stuff.

August, how are you over already??

Alright, so yeah, clearly I did buy more yarn, thereby not achieving my mini-goal #4.  But, I did complete the other three!

Camping was fun (hit up a yarn store in Newmarket on the way - Serenity Knits - and grabbed two skeins I haven't seen before).  I also had to purchase another Briggs & Little Heritage for Walter's sweater (the Stormy Day Jacket) as I ran out during the first sleeve.  That was yarn originally purchased at Romni in July.

Earlier in August, I bought two skeins of jumbo yarn for a circular needle holder, so that's already in and out of stash, project completed.  Of course, there was also that trip to get jumbo yarn for my MIL that resulted in my also purchasing another ball, and then last week Walter wanted me to make him another blanket with the massive Caron Anniversary ball, so I got one of those, too.

I think some of this buying may have had something to do with the medication I was on (coming off it now), but likely not all!

Here are September's goals:

1.  Put the camping stuff away.

2.  Finish Walter's Stormy Day Jacket - it only has 1.5 sleeves, the button band, and blocking for completion (and I suppose it'll need buttons, too).

3.  Finish Musselburgh (again - I ripped it out because it was too big, but I'm halfway again).

4.  Survive the medication withdrawal symptoms.  This vertigo is ridiculous.

September.  September was wild.  I actually only bought 12 skeins (three entries) on the 14th.  One entry (of six skeins) is mine, one (four skeins) is my husband's, and one (two skeins) is my son's.

I also decided to frog some of the projects started earlier this year (Ceciliana and the Goblin socks).  Ceciliana's yarns weren't playing well together, and the yarn for the socks wants to be a hat (probably a third Musselburgh - that's a fun one to knit).

For September's goals, I got through 3 and 4.  I'm so close to finishing Walter's jacket.  It's currently blocking and needs buttons, but it's otherwise done.  The camping stuff is half put away.  It was a wild month.

Here are October's goals:

1.  Put the freaking camping stuff away.

2.  Finish Walter's jacket and his hat.

3.  Don't buy yarn.  Seriously.  I don't knit that fast, really.

4.  Sharpen the reed knife and keep practicing.

Escitalopram Update

 I think it's out.

I no longer feel exhausted all the time.  I'm not clenching my jaw constantly or yawning.  I don't feel numb anymore.

It took a while to start fading.  A good two weeks went by with no improvement, then the dizziness hit.  It was pretty constant some days.  It's down to mild brain zaps in the evenings, and even those are getting less day by day.

I want to go to work again.  I've cried again.  I don't ever want to try another SSRI.

End of August Update

 WIPs (new ones are bolded)

Ten Stitch Blanket, Caron Cakes (started 2019)

Sockhead Slouch Hat, Wandering Cat Yarns Solo Cat (started 2019, frogged and restarted 2024)

Liesl, Cascade Yarns Color Duo (started February 18, 2024)

Little Drops of Water MKAL, JaggerSpun Zephyr Wool-Silk 2/18 (Started July 4, 2024)

Musselburgh, Gedifra Lana Mia (Started July 16, 2024)(Restarted August 28 - too large)

Walter's Blanket, Lion Brand Mandala Sparkle (Started July 16, 2024)

Needle Holder, Lion Brand Wool Ease Wow! (Started August 4, finished August 5)

Stormy Day Jacket, Briggs & Little Heritage 2-Ply (Started August 17, 2024)

Goblin Socks, Hedgehog Fibres Sock (Started March 2, 2024 and I truly don't know why it wasn't added)

Hibernating

Dancing Bees MKAL, Debbie Bliss Rialto Lace (started 2015 - oops)

Daughter of Thrain MKAL, Crystal Palace Yarn Lace (started 2017)(I think I'm going to frog this one)

Ceciliana, madelinetosh Tosh Sock, madelinetosh Twist Light (started March 19, 2024)(I think I'm going to frog this one)

Havannah, Sublime Yarns Eden DK (Started  July 16, 2024)

Oranje, Estelle Yarns Andean Heathers (started 2017, frogged and restarted on smaller needles 2024)

End of month yarn stats:  54 entries, 83 skeins, 26,704.00 yards.  I bought more stuff.

Oh, boy.  Okay, I know y'all are looking at the three projects started on July 16 - I swear there's a reason.  So, I was going to a concert (Red Hot Chili Peppers) on July 17, but I didn't have an appropriate knitting project, so I had to start one.  The first one (Havannah) was too complicated, so I started Musselburgh (which was perfect).

The only problem with Musselburgh was my needle, so I went to my LYS the next day (before the concert) and grabbed a better one.  And while I was there, I saw a shiny and got it, too.

Then there was the trip to Chinatown in Toronto, which was so close to another favourite LYS, so I got yarn then.

As for my goals . . . well, I didn't do any of them.

Here are August's goals:

1.  Put the camping stuff in my car for the camping trip at the end of the month.

2.  Block Liesl and the hat.

3.  Work on the MKAL (I'm four clues behind).

4.  No more yarn buying!!

August, how are you over already??

Alright, so yeah, clearly I did buy more yarn, thereby not achieving my mini-goal #4.  But, I did complete the other three!

Camping was fun (hit up a yarn store in Newmarket on the way - Serenity Knits - and grabbed two skeins I haven't seen before).  I also had to purchase another Briggs & Little Heritage for Walter's sweater (the Stormy Day Jacket) as I ran out during the first sleeve.  That was yarn originally purchased at Romni in July.

Earlier in August, I bought two skeins of jumbo yarn for a circular needle holder, so that's already in and out of stash, project completed.  Of course, there was also that trip to get jumbo yarn for my MIL that resulted in my also purchasing another ball, and then last week Walter wanted me to make him another blanket with the massive Caron Anniversary ball, so I got one of those, too.

I think some of this buying may have had something to do with the medication I was on (coming off it now), but likely not all!

Here are September's goals:

1.  Put the camping stuff away.

2.  Finish Walter's Stormy Day Jacket - it only has 1.5 sleeves, the button band, and blocking for completion (and I suppose it'll need buttons, too).

3.  Finish Musselburgh (again - I ripped it out because it was too big, but I'm halfway again).

4.  Survive the medication withdrawal symptoms.  This vertigo is ridiculous.

My Escitalopram Trip

 My doctor prescribed this for my anxiety.  I started with 5mg for one week, then 10mg.

Over the next two weeks, I didn't notice any differences except for extreme fatigue and yawning.  Then, by the third week, I'd started feeling a pressure-like anxiety, constantly.  I was clenching my jaw all the time.

By week four, I began feeling numb - it's apparently calling emotional blunting.  I didn't want to do anything I'd previously enjoyed, including my job (and I love my job).  I also went to a concert and afterward, I didn't feel that sense of loss that I usually feel after an exciting event.

I started getting the occasional bout of vertigo.  Once it was so bad I couldn't go anywhere.

On week six, I followed up with the doctor and they suggested that the dose was too low, and they bumped me up to 20mg.  Oh my.

I kept thinking that this was going to get better, the medication just takes time, and I'd eventually feel good.  Because of this, I kept everything to myself and didn't talk to my boss about what I was going through.

This last Tuesday, just past the seven-week mark, my doctor said it probably wasn't working correctly for me.  (To my surprise, the emotional blunting was not her concern, but rather the vertigo and fatigue.)  I've now got to lower the dose to 10mg for a week, then cut it completely.

The relief I felt when I realized that this wasn't normal and it wasn't working for me was like cool water on a hot day.  I finally told my boss what had been going on.  I know that the withdrawal from this medication will be interesting (brain zaps, apparently), but the knowledge that I will be me again once it's out of my system is what I'm fixating on.  Even though anxiety-me has issues, I'd rather feel again and be interested in things.

Also, the low-level panic feeling I've had for the last day needs to go.  I'll update again soon.